I plan to do something with my life.
It is not a big catastrophe if I fail, because at this age, people are expecting to see me fail. So I will do no worse than expectation.
I must not be satisfied with merely some acceptable academic standing. This student thing is like a part-time job that will eventually lead to something, believe it or not. This is not my life. Well, not all of it. I should be working on something I can be proud of, something unusual, a personal project, say, try to find a way to make nuclear fusion possible at a low temperature or analysis the entire set of work by Schopenhauer. My work will be kept a secret, so nobody may criticize it before I have completed it. I do not need the approval of all my peers in school. Keep in mind that they are just a bunch of kids selected because of the coincidence of age and geography. I do not have to make them like me or like them at all. I will find mates in individuals who have earned my respect by their vision and abilities. It will be ideal to have a social circle formed by people who share my belief and aesthetic preferences.
I understand that there is no switch that is turned on when I reach a certain age or graduate from a certain institution. To become an adult, I have to accept my flaws as a human and accomplish something during my lifespan.
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